So I should probably mention that I’ve changed everything since my last post.
After two days at BluBet, I decided that in fact I am not able to go back to work at this time. I liked the people, the company vision, and the job… but I just don’t have it in me. In fact, I think the last 10 years was all I had, and it’s all used up. I have various theories and explanations to explain why I’m at where I’m at, but if you want to hear them you’ll have to buy me a latte at Ritual. Suffice it to say I’ve got too many things I want to do that I’ve been putting off for too long.
What are these things I want to do? I’m not 100% sure. I suppose the first thing I want to do is to figure that out. I’m lucky enough to have a little time to experiment, given that I do so in a very frugal manner. So that’s what I’m going to do. I’m considering the feasibility of doing my own startup. I’m writing up an Indigarden business plan to shake the ideas out. If it looks good I’ll go for that. If not, I’ll look into something else.
I want to record some music again in any case.
Speaking of which, here’s a little clip of me practicing (sorry, no streaming… it has to download 10MB completely first). I just recorded it today. It wasn’t intended for public consumption, but what the heck: I only look of average dorkiness and I only make a few major mistakes. It’s a song I wrote back in Dec 2000 that applies just as well to my state of mind eight years later.
I’m not actually as sad and apathetic as I look in the video 
The song sounds good. I didn’t really realize you had a voice or could play so well.
Thanks! I’m not sure that clip actually demonstrates that I have a voice or that I can play well… but if it fooled you then maybe I’m on to something